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We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain.
But what's so normal in the evening, by the morning seems insane.

Now, I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this....
The reasons have all run away, but the feelings never did.
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live.
Because what's so simple in the moonlight by the morning never is.

"So, let's take the glamour out of depression because the pill bottles... while your heart is getting harder to lift and you can't stay sad all the time!!
Can you?
Can you?!!"

_{please don't do it Abby. i know, i KNOW your heart is shattered. i sat with you all night long while we sobbed together. it's not fair, i know. i hurt with you...together. i promise you this will get better; and i will be there. always.}

_{also: as it's approaching and tearing me up already
rest peacefully Earl Sowers 11/21/03 and Big Jules 11/22/05. Never forgotten -- always loved.

**try not to read too much into this if you can. this is a deviation that speaks to three separate issues. all actually very traumatic to me. it's november. pills are death. they steal lives. young lives. and, yet i push the pill bottle every night to the brink and slam it shut just as fast. this is a very very personal piece. almost as hard as my last deviation. i wanted to put it under mature content, but there are some of my younger viewers who would like to see this and there's nothing graphic; just challenging. and to think, most who struggle with urges like these, abuse these or have died from these are under 18. they need to see this. and i needed to speak this from my core. it's eating me inside out. and i don't want it to swallow me whole and make the same mistakes many before me have. i don't want anyone to make this mistake. or even attempt it, think it, tamper or experiment with anything similar. and i certainly pray and wish no one ever goes for it intentionally. that's why the cause To Write Love on Her Arms is so important to me. thank you for your support and understanding. these deviations have been so difficult to post; but art is my outlet. it's my safety when i have nowhere or no one else to turn to. welcome inside my chest, my head. please be gentle with commentary.}

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~NykiiLynn Mar 30, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

the medication thing in your description... did you write that?

~goemz Jan 27, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

smart concept..

!sunnymonster Mar 15, 2010

i'm not good at commenting, but i just feel like i should say... this speaks to me.

sometimes i realize i can't think of a reason to be alive (and a whole lot of reasons not to be) but then someone like you is a reason. and every reason helps.

~carvingbackbone Mar 15, 2010 Student General Artist

aw, goodness.
i cannot tell you what that means to ME to hear.
i do hope that i could help continue to be some source of light for you when you feel there's none.
i'm here. ...and i do care.

~bby11us Jan 12, 2010

This has always been one of my favorite pieces in your gallery, but when I saw it for the first time, I didn't favorite it because my mind had wandered.

I've been clinically depressed since I was 12, and I still very much struggle with it today. This really struck me because I can't count the amount of times that I've been sitting on the edge of my bed across from the pill bottle, not knowing what to do anymore.

I so very much appreciate the honesty of your art because it helps remind me that I'm not alone.

Thank you, and stay strong.

~carvingbackbone Jan 15, 2010 Student General Artist

aw, goodness.
this is one of those times where i hate that someone can relate so well, but at the same time and SO grateful that you can. it sucks that anyone has to go through these feelings, but there's such comfort and relief in knowing that you're not alone and that we can hold one another up and share stories of strength to help lead each other through.
thank you for your comment as well; it reminds me that what i post has a purpose far greater than just my own personal healing

~NerdyAndLovinIt Dec 11, 2009 Student General Artist

This really inspired me. In a good way, promise!

~carvingbackbone Dec 15, 2009 Student General Artist

thank you so very much; i'm so so glad

~Doreda-Lorinda Nov 16, 2009

November... she tried suicide last November.

She finally did it last August.

16 is too young to die...

~carvingbackbone Nov 16, 2009 Student General Artist

.....my too friends succeed in november.
one was 15; the other 21.

i'm sorry for your loss.

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